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Friday, 25 December 2009

Speechless.

Never had I felt embarrased in my life EVER before!
I can't believe even a stranger knows! I just find it unfair to be carrying out this "shame" and "blame" on my own. For goodness sake! When will this ever stop! No one! Nobody ever knew what I've gone through....
It was only recently that I finally told someone what I've been going through in details. That someone's Wansha...I felt better telling him. At least someone knows but if a stranger ask me about it, i think it's way beyond crazy.
Yes, i do have vengeance in me, i just don't know how to show it.
I just wanna be happy... And, isn't it ironic to know that every single guy friend that i just gotta know has a connection SOMEHOW to him. It's conincidence, i know but after a while i find it weird... VERY weird.
I guest i'm living in a small world. -,-
I WISH, I JUST WISH he knew what i went through at that period of time till present(now). He thinks it's something normal. It NEVER was. It NEVER is. It NEVER will. You RUINED my ENTIRE LIFE. Idk if i should thank you or just hate you for what you've done to me. SIGH SIGH SIGH!
I just find it hard to forgive you. An said to me before, "e'era, tak baek. setiap ape yang kau ckp mcm doa sey. Lg dier buat sala besar ngn kau".
I know but it's just too hard. Wansha understands laaa. It's not about what happened before anymore. It's not about us even. It's about what i've lost and the outcome of it. Really hurting... You never see me suffer.
Bukan nak sumpah ke ape uh. Tapi satu hari kau tau uh ape aku rase... Bile kau da btol2 serious in that kinda thing tros kau rase kehilangan. Then you'll know what's the real meaning to the word "suffering" and "depressed".
PS: I'm so shockkkkkkK!!!!!!!! Siak uh!
SheerAdorable ~ 211108, Friday - 9.45am
xoxo

Tuesday, 22 December 2009

Sudden Crash!

Hey all! I can't wait to update my blog!
Last Sunday, Kak Min's Family was involved in an accident. The incident happened at about 3.00a.m in the morning when Abg In was driving the rest of the family members home. Abg in and Bibik fetched Kak Min, Wira and Darwisya from Golden Mile earlier before the incident as Kak Min, Wira and Darwisya just came back from KL. I was told that the car went out of controlled.
Kak Min pulled the break and that was went the car turned over twice. Darwisya was warded as she got a bump on her head(FYI, she's only 2+). Abg in has slight injury.
Kak Min has bruises and burns all over her body including her face. She also fractured her nose. Bibik had a slight concussion. Wira also has slight injury. Alhamdulillah everyone's fine :D
So today I went to visit them at their houses. Darwisya's fine. Kak Min's swolen face makes her look like it's not her. I can know that bibik still feels tired or smtg from the accident. Abg In's okay also. So yeap2. Today's great.
Earlier today I met Hazro. We went to Swensen's for ice-cream. Haha! I was killing time coz my dad said that everyone's not ready to go out yet. I was tired of killing time so i went home first. I got no energy la.
My kidney area was hurting me like hell! Lemah sey badan aku. I can't even walk properly. I felt like it was a year, a month and a day ago(count it yourself). Seriously.. haha. Whatever laa.
Oh yea! I was in the Berita Harian last 18Dec2009. I still remember the interview i did with Shamsul the reporter. I wasn't the only one doing the interview. I was with Syafiq(student from facility) and Liyana(student from beauty theraphy). I was the first one interviewed, followed by Liyana then Syafiq. It was fun! Fun! Fun! :D I got free movie tickets bcoz i visited the old folks home. So yeap2, cool uh. Tk sia-sia beramal (",)
Gtg now! *Winks*
Quote of the day - Just when I think about someone new I keep on forgetting to forget about you - Keep Forgetting (To Forget About You) - JOJO
SheerAdorable ~ 211108, Friday - 9.45am
xoxo

Sunday, 13 December 2009

3 DAYS OF FUNNNNN! :D

3 days post baby!
FRIDAY, 111209 !!!
i went to sch wanting to bleach my hair purple and blue but ended up not bleaching or putting a single colour on my hair cause i can't. Ms Ang said she chose me to be interview with the press this 15December2009 for the Old folks home thingy. There's gonna be a christmas event there and me and a couple of my classmates are involve. I can't wait! :D So since i couldn't do anything to my hair i took the hair dryer and set my own hair. Sprayed my hair with my L'oreal Playball. I can't live without hair spray and Hair dryer so yeap! I did Joyah[fyfe] and Hazro's hair too.

After school, we headed to city hall. We ate at Marina and then to esplanade and did that ball thingy. we scribbled on it. I don't have the pictures with me, they're all with Joyah[fyfe]. I scribbled some friendship stuffs on that ball. trust me! we never forgets Didi! hee~ Not long after that, we head home (:

Saturday, 121209 !!!
I was sleeping when i heard my ringtone singing "ACCORDING TO YOU IM STUPID I"M USELESS!" Hahaha, i picked up the call as i don't recognise the number at that time so yea. I was like, "hello?" And then the guy said, "Eera, ni Meza" i was like, " Meza?!" He then said, "uh! Meza," I was like "mane kau dpt number aku?"... Hahah, So basically he wanted my help. He told me to come to his house and dye his hair. So i did. I bath and after bathing he called me like as if he knows i just came out of the bathroom. He kinda sound diff and said, "ey, Khai kat ruma aku taw" Then i was like " huh? dier tau tk aku nak dtg?" So ended up he knows.. Meza told Khai that i was coming. Meza begged us individually to not feel awkward. I know i won't feel awkward, he would. So idk., I came and did his hair. Khai was inside. Haha, so then i saw khai, i waved to him first an said hello. So bla3, thanks to Meza, Khai don't have to feel that awkward around me anymore. huhu~

So later on i went home to get ready to go out with my family and my BFF Joyah[fyfe]. We went to Al-azhar for a meal then we went to town to meet Kak emin's family. We took dozen of pictures. It's all with Joyah tho. She's off to Penang tmr, she's sleeping at our school hostel today. I hope she have fun there. After town, we sent Hamka, bibik and Darwisha home. My family and Joyah went to drink at Mcdonalds coz we were dehydrating. hahah. After Mc we sent Joyah home.  Oh yea! Joyah took a video of me singing in the car. Hahah! I was bored so yea, it was a playful video. I even messed up the lyrics. So cinfident....-,- hahah.
Overall, we had fun!
  :D

Sunday, 131209 !!!

Mama woke me up today, grhh.. I was so shack from yesterday's outing so yea.., We went to sent my sister to Rivervale walk. Then Mama, Ayah, Nurin and i hanged around at seletar somethingg,,, Idk the name of the place. I enjoyed the breeze there. It was soo windy and nice. I switched on song from my ohone and sang. Haha, senang hatiii mah! huhu~ We enjoyed the breeze enough and headed to greenridge for a meal. I called Akid ask him to come down and give back my earpiece. So he did. I said farewell to him as he's going away till next year to Selangor for his attachment there.. I'm gonna miss him, Din and Faz... So yeap2.
After eating, we went home. Then Mama, nurin and i boring so we went out. Not too far, just around my house. Lot 1 only lurh. haha. So yeap2, my life is so funnn!       NOW!   :D
Quote of the day - Don't care about all the pain in front of me cause i'm just trying to be happy - Happy - LEONA LEWIS
SheerAdorable ~ 211108, Friday
xoxo

Thursday, 10 December 2009

Dumb-Dumb THURSDAY! (:

Hey all! Today Hazro and i feel soo dumb!
I couldn't really get my ass off bed in the morning.So i slept back till 7 plus, hah!
Met Hazro and went to take the train. I continued my sleeping in the train with Hazro. haha.
While napping, Fyfe texted me when the train was on it's way from Bedok to Tanah Merah.
Fyfe JV: Bring over a bed for me to sleep.
Me: Haha, why?
Fyfe JV: Maybe no hair cut. And i met Mr Ang he said no hair perm today.
After that texting thing i woke Hazro up and showed the msg, we then called Fyfe. Haha.
Hazro talked to her asking if she saw anybody. She didn't see anyone.
We then ask if she checked the hair lab, she said not yet.
Hazro then said, " Joyah! you go to the lab now.. No! you go now! You know we stay far you stay so near you know! hahaha.
Fyfe checked and there's really no class today so yeap2, nobody informed us.
That's the mean part. So then we met Fyfe at Tampinese for breakfast. Hahah~
We then went back to school for commercial service. We had to wait a few hours before commercial service started so yeap2!
Fyfe,Hazro and i slack outside the hair lab. hahah! Joke around, put nail polish on each others nails and play with make-up. hahah!

We then went for commercial service. I cut Hazro's hair! here's the video! It's only 2 mins or so. Not the hold entire haircut. [PS: I look soo the not nice in this video] huhu~ :D

After commercial service ended, Didi, Fyfe, Hazro and i went for lunch at Bedok.
I shared my meal with Fyfe. Didi and Hazro bought the same food. So yeap2. I then bought sushi. haha, yumm.
So as you guys know, i call fyfe "CYNDI LAUPER" coz she looks like her.
So just now when we were all walking at Bedok, Cyndi Lauper's song entitled Girls just wanna have fun was blast out! hahah! I recognise the song so i was laughinggg at her..
Hahaha, btw Fyfe don't be sad.
Doesn't mean me and Hazro got the same hair now, you cant blend in with us. You will ALWAYS be our Siti Halimah Joyah Lauper! :D
So the Didi and Fyfe took the bus. Hazro and i took the train.
While Hazro and i were walking to the train station, i spotted this woman who was wearing something over her head. I swear i thought it was a towel over her head. Hazro and i laughed till we couldn't move. Hahah!
So we took the escalator down to the control station.
We saw the lift, someone was already in so we kinnda rush to the lift so confidently
while we were still laughing iver the woman with that "towel" on the head.
So then the lift stopped. We both happily went out thinking that it was the platform level, instead we discovered the other side of the street. hahahhah! Hazro and i laughed till we sat on the floor.
Really i felt so dumb today. Now, that's what you get when you're too confident. hahahahh!
Anyways, we went back up and took the train.We fell asleep in the train while listening to music. haha. Jurong East was so packed cause we reached there at 6.30..
Not a great timing there. So yeap2. I reached CCK and went home.
Abg Nizam's at my house using internet. Hahah, so yeap2 :D
Quote of the day - I look so good without you, got me a new hairdo, lookin' fresh and brand new,
Since you said that we're through. - I Look So Good (Without You) - JESSIE JAMES
SHEERAdorable ~ 211109, Friday - 9.45am
xoxo

Wednesday, 09 December 2009

Wednesdayyyy !

Hey guys and girls! Today was funnn! huhu~
School was fine. Didi presented his HSO project on Lady Gaga. I got the Video with me! huhu~
I'm glad it's over. Didi and i brainstormed on this project for less then a week. I love helping Dimin!!! huhu~!

After school, i went to town to meet my cousins and aunt from Malaysia. Yeap! You guessed it right. I was in my school uniform. Hahah! But i don't really mind coz i find my uniform nice. Hahah, (:
We took alottt of pictures but the pictures are all on Seth's camera. So have to wait for him to upload on facebook. I got some from my phone too. I saw this giant stacked of Ferrero Rochers. Omg, so yummy la! hahaha!
So i kinda just reached home a few hours ago. So yeap2. I went online. Saw Miza online. Haha, but i think booby got something going on. He sounded somewhat serious a little just now. Don't know la ey.. Anyway, tmr i'm cutting Hazro's hair for her. She wants something simillar to my hairstyle, so we'll see how things go. Hee~ Tmr after school Didi, Fyfer and i have commercial service. So yeap2. Whatever it is, I CAN'T WAIT FOR HOLIDAYS! Looking forward to it. I'll be bleaching my hair this friday, Purple and blue. Haha, crazy ayy? I know. Didi and Hazro is doing the same color as me too. Huhu~ Can't wait!
Quote of the day - And when I'm looking back, how we were young and stupid. Do you remember that? - I Still - BACKSTREET BOYS
SheerAdorable ~ 211109, Friday - 9.45am
xoxo